Not totally unexpected

Went to the doctor today about my feet/hands/neck and what not. I walked out so frustrated that I was almost crying, finally did once I got to my car. I am so sick of hearing that I am too young to have as much pain as I say I am, that the diseases that my symptoms are pointing to are for people who are older than I am. I FREAKING already know this!! Does not change one iota how much it hurts though!!!

To sum things up:

1. Doc won't sign a handicapped placard application because he says that he doesnt think that I am handicapped (why the fuck am I getting 30% disability then!) and that the DMV probably wont approve placards anyway. He won't listen to the fact that I got out of the army for massive feet problems and now have to walk a mile and a half to class each day. Also, wont listen to the fact that it can take me up to 10 minutes to walk "normally" in the morning: normally is defined as not in excruciating pain.

2. Doc also says that he cant get me an earlier appointment for the Podiatrist because my problem is ongoing and not acute...WTF...maybe I should stab myself in the foot to get some service!!! By the way, the earliest appointment is 4 months away!! In the mean time I am supposed to hobble a mile and a half one way to school, take some pretty freaking strong drugs to just take the edge off the pain, and cross my fingers and hope that things arent going to get worse.

3. Doc also says that he wont even look at the problem with my hands until I get an x-ray. Cant get an x-ray until I go to the podiatrist...so looking at 5 months until my hands even get considered!!! And of course, you guessed it ladies and gentlemen, I have to deal with the pain, spasms, jolts and cramps in my hand(s) until then. It has gotten to the point that I cannot write well enough to take notes in class...HAHA...well, atleast if I fail I can blame them!!

So in a nutshell, I hate the army...(VA really but who cares). Once again, fucking budget cuts and politicians pay raises are taking a piece of the veterans benefits. You know, I would like for one of the senators to try to get a health exam or a problem taken care of in the veterans system...they would see then that while they are sitting in their cush jobs and earning REAL healthcare for life, the soldiers they are sending to war are getting shit after they are out....WE RISKED OUR LIVES!!! They voted on bullshit legislation and their own payraises and get more thanks from this country than us. We get a $100,000 death benefit if we DIE and they get paid that per year!!! What the hell is wrong with this picture!!! Take a freaking pay cut and give us what you freaking promised us when we signed up!!

C