May First

Fourteen years ago next week I found myself in one of those situations that everyone thinks will never happen to them. Even now, this far down the road I still tend to rehash the event when the anniversary comes around.

This year I find myself thinking of all the lives that were affected by that day and wonder where we would all be if not for that day. Would the kids that were killed have lived good lives, productive and happy? Would the teacher who was killed be still teaching? Would the kids who lived be different in any way? Would I have joined the military? Would I have done anything at all with my life if I had not been pushed so hard to ensure I enjoyed it and lived well for the sake of those who were no longer able?

I cannot even guess how much that has changed me...so many things have influences on us in ways we don't know...I think May first has given me a drive to acheive and has led me to do the things I have done in life...I don't know...maybe.

Sorry for the philosophical stuff

C