X-mas Depression

So I just finished my X-mas shopping. I am a little depressed, I had planned to buy the boys lots of stuff for christmas, but unfortunately there is less money than initially hoped for. I hate to be a downer and complain but this is where I go to do it so deal with it.

I hate being poor, I am giving the others in my family cheap photo albums and pictures of my family to try to cut down on expenses...I wanted to make ornaments or something or even actually buy them real gifts but I can't freaking afford it. I did however make sure to buy the kids in all the families gifts (real ones) and I hope they like them. The boys are used to comming out on christmas morning to lots of gifts...I dont have that many for them this year...we are having chicken for x-mas dinner because a ham is too expensive...THIS FUCKING SUCKS!!

Next year however, I should have a real job...or at least I will start buying stuff in August. I just dont want the kids to feel how tight money has gotten since we moved. They wont...they are great kids...they are not the type to complain if they dont get enough gifts...but I dont want them to be even in the slightest disappointed, you know.



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