I'm not that kind of scientist!!

I feel awful...I am not the kind of scientist that is okay with experimenting on animals. We had to do a surgery today on a rat and remove one of it's kidneys, it was knocked out but all we had was dull scissors and forceps. It was horrible, brutal and unnecessary. In two weeks we have to remove the other one and determine the difference in weight of the kidneys. The realization will hit you in a few seconds...yep, thats right, it will die....cause ya can't live with out at least one kidney. I love biology...but this is why I did not go into research, this is why I am thoroughly done in today...I want to drop this class, I don't want to be the reason for the death of this rat...I am so frustrated that I have to keep the fucking class though...why the hell do I need Vertebrate Physiology as a MICRObiologist...microbes don't have vertebrae!!!

I am going to bed.

Eh...I will join the bandwagon.

“30 Questions You’d Probably Never Think to Ask”

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
(sigh)

2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters?
No, I like the thrill of seeing what is coming at me.

3. When is the last time you went sledding?
Must have been about 28ish.

4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
Someone else, as long as that someone else is my hubby…

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
Only when it is dark and they start trying to scare me by making things creak and go bump!!

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
No, unfortunately I guess I skipped that line when they were handing out the goods.

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
No, I know, I know everyone else does but somehow…those gloves….

8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Angelina with out hesitation.

9. Can you honestly say you really know anything about politics?
Yeah…unfortunately…I know just enough to be opinionated.

10. Do you know how to play poker?
Yes

11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
I dont know if I would call it awake, more zombieish near the end there.

12. What’s your favorite commercial?
It has to be those Citibank commercials where the person has had their identity stolen and they speak in the voice of the person who stole it…those crack me up every time…just funny as hell!

13. Who was your first love?
Chocolate!! Oh, you mean person…I used to think that I had been in love before but now…Well, lets just say that I fall in love every day with my hubby and it is nothing compared to puppy love.

14. If you’re driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around, do you go through a red light?
I would but then I get incredibly paranoid that there was a police car near by or that they had installed a camera and had my picture so I just avoid that whole scene altogether and stop at the lighe.

15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you?
Yup

16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
San Francisco 49ers!! We are talking about football here right?!?

17. Have you ever been Ice Skating?
Yes, with my cousin when I was about 10, it was really fun and she was really good at it. However, now I just like to watch it on TV.

18. How often do you remember your dreams?
Two or three times a week, and usually they are weird enough for me to go and check the continued existence of my family and friends.

19. What’s the one thing on your mind right now?
One? You are kidding right?!? I hope Shel has her surgery, I hope I passed the mid-term I took today, I wonder if I should just find a job or if I should continue with school, I hope my boys are happy and have lots of friends and fun at school, I wonder how in the hell the holidays are going to work with all the people to visit, I hope my …

20. Do you always wear your seat belt?
Yes, just about the only thing I do religiously.

21. What talent do you wish you had?
Yes, I wish I could express myself in some creative way.

22. Do you like sushi?
Only the ones with out the raw fish.

23. What do you wear to bed?
Tee shirt and undies…unless it is really hot, then it is in my birthday suit.

24. Do you truly hate anyone?
Yes.

25. If you could meet one famous person, who would it be?
Bill Gates, to tell him to send some of his charity money to the kids and schools here in the US.

26. Do you know anyone in jail?
Yes

27. What food do you find disgusting?
Beef fat, gristle whatever you want to call it, if you have to chew it for longer than a few minutes and it is not gum it should not be eaten!!

28. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back?
No…don’t think so...but then my memory is bad and I can’t even remember what I had for breakfast.

29. Have you ever been punched in the face?
Yup.

30. Do you believe in angels and demons?
Sometimes…see #5, I guess everyone believes in that stuff when they need to.

R

Now, my son R is a strange and very interesting kid...we all know this...but he still finds ways in which to surprise me...

For instance...one day we were at the school carnival (some have heard this one...if you have just skip down...I wont mind) we walked up to a lady who was working one of the booths and gave our tickets so R could play the game (whatever it was). He tells her matter of factly, "You are kinda scary." She replies to this by laughing and asking him, "It is the beads isn't it" (she was wearing a string of very gaudy beads). He dead pans and replies "No, it's your face."

Needless to say I was floored here and just blustered and tried to appologize and chastise him...but he got me again.

Now, to the most recent one...

He got in trouble at school today...

Why you ask...

He and a friend were in the bathroom "testing the acoustics" by screaming at the top of their lungs. A teacher ran into the bathroom and asked if they were hurt...they apparently looked blankly at him and said they were okay. He asked why they were screaming...their reply... "cause it sounded neat"

lol...my boy

C

Finally some outcry!!

Well, if you have ever sat with me for more than a few minutes you have probably sat through my rant about how the super-skinny-matchstick models (and women) are disgusting and simply a skeleton with skin stretched over. Well, finally people are doing something about it...maybe not here (yet, you know how we can't resist trends) but in Madrid they have banned any models whose body mass index is below a certain level. HURRAY!!!

It is about freaking time someone takes a stand and says that this is unhealthy, disgusting and awful to look at! How can anyone find these women beautiful...their bones are jutting out of their bodies!!

Oh, and I especially liked the part where the guy says "anorexia was a "rare phenomenon" in the fashion business" Yeah Right...have you seen some of these women!! take a look at the woman in the article!! HA...

Anyway...this concludes my rant on the super-skinny-matchstick women!

C

Sunday

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday dear meeeee
Happy Birthday to me!!!

Yay...today is my 31st birthday...I thought I would have a hard time or feel old or something...but this morning looking at my two beautiful boys eating their breakfast, or watching my hubby do some "Honey Do's" for me made me realize that I feel pretty good for 31. Maybe it is because I don't feel like the last 31 years have been wasted, like I have done something good with my life.

Anyway...enough saccharin sweetness...thanks for the happy birthday wishes from everyone!

C

An end to the rattle and ping of my car?!?

Went to get the car smogged today and guess what...finally found someone who knows what they are talking about! They said that the diesel sound that my car makes is due to the timing chain possibly going out or a little bracket that holds it in place...

Yay...perhaps I will have a quiet car again! The problem comes in that if it is the chain it will cost roughly $600 but if it is the bracket probably around $60. Here is to crossing my fingers for the bracket!! The other side of the coin? The car probably will not pass it's next smog...bummer...but the thing has given it's all you know!! Any way...wanted to share the good news!

C

Dogs...or something approaching that description.

I saw a girl today with one of those little yappy dogs that girls are carrying around now a days. You know the ones, in a little carrier or bag, they just sit there looking around kinda startled like...totally a fad and some sort of status symbol. I just don't get it...but it started me thinking... What is going to happen to these dogs when the fad is over??? Will there be a new misfit island..."The Island of Unstylish Dogs" If little shaky nervous dogs are in style now...what is next? I had considered ferrets...but they would bite and while funny to watch the little girl owners would found a new island for "Bitey Ferrets" faster than you can say, "They're biting the stupid gits!" I also thought maybe hairless cats but they are ugly and no fads surround anything ugly...unless you count the dogs of course. Gerbils are out because of their tendency to be found in the colons of those on the more extreme side of sexually adventurous. Cats would not put up with being held for so damn long, riding in cars and they have very sharp claws. So that leaves what? Maybe baby mice...they are cute...and if you raise them from little babies they might not bite...they love to be held, if they are used to it...hmmm...we will see!